♂♀Monday, September 8, 2008
Colorful Rainbow
The feeling was so overwhelming right now that my brain is not functioning. serious. I can feel my whole body very weak now. My heart is beating so fast and i couldn't catch my breathe too. I'm not trying to sound exaggerate nor kidding. I couldn't believed that the feeling came back so strongly again after two months. My heart is aching and bleeding. He was the only one that make me couldn't control my emotional. I couldn't accpect the fact that he is flirting (or should i say in a relationship)with other girl right now thou we have parted for like 3 months ago. But i didn't expect it to be so so fast. Really fast. All i can remember was that he told me that he's scare of girl after the relationship we had in e past. ok. BULLSHIT. He is trying to make feel guilty isn't it? Fuck. I'm not trying to be selfish or wat but i guess i wasn't prepare at all. I thought all these should be happened after his NS but i was wrong. Tears started to roll down without knowing it when i saw the website which is tagged(smt like friendster). What's worst, is that i couldn't cry out loud cos im working. keep on holding back my tears. We parted not because we find that we are not suitable for each other. The fact is he did something wrong which is so serious that cannot be undone. I've no choice but to break up. I always got agitated so easily by the action and words he do and said. I told myself to ignore it but i can't. ok! maybe he too despo for gers. Even young girls also want to flirt. wth!! Seriously, i feel like give myself one tigh slap. really!! I always thought that im strong but i wasn't at all.
I guess it's time for me to let go of everything and pick myself up again. CAN I?? I didn't know that i've reacted it so strongly again. Aright!! I shall stop brooding over all these.
Above Your Imagination
4:30 PM
